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It's easy to say hard AF to do. I found that I have to divorce myself emotionally or I will never get away. If I don't make a clean break meaning no sex or anything I will always go back, it's how I'm wired. My ex and I had a crap relationship with good sex and after we broke up we would fool around and all the emotions would come rushing back and then there we go trying again. I've learned and grown from that.
