The Cookout

She isn't taking the death of her mother well at all and I am afraid she may harm herself again. My aunt is a paranoid schizophrenia and we have been dealing with that since I was 5. The 2 strongest pillers in my family was my grandfather and my mother that knew how to handle my aunt during her breakdowns.

We DO NOT all the police, we handle it the best we can. Nothing sharp can be around her because 2 years prior she took a razor blade to her neck.. she lost so much blood she had a major stroke and is unable to walk now.

Now just like I gave my grandfather my word "To watch over and protect my grandma, my mother and 2 aunts" and I have been doing just that. I owe Nini the world. This woman has been my rock for 6 years and has seen whats been going on. We are all we got at this point. I have turned the family room into my aunts bedroom complete with hospital bed, our living room was turned into my grandmothers hospice and that has since been removed and is back as our living room.

Nothing feels right anymore.

The Honorable said:

Always remember that you have a life to live as well. Don’t let the burden of others become your burden. You need to be a man and support your family but not at the expense of your happiness, your goals, and your mental/physical health. Make sure that in these times you’re setting healthy boundaries with your loved ones so that you’re not sacrificing your self in the process.

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Thank you Fam. I am going to keep it positive. But it sucks being the only child but Im built to keep on pushing. I think my grandparents would want it that way.

Jay said:

This is that difficult balance you have to find when it comes to family. Should you put your resources on the line for someone who has squandered theirs just because you have common relatives? Or should you compromise your happiness to make sure someone else has theirs?

The Haze Of Our Lives its important to be a man but like the brother said, don’t lose yourself in all of this. Would you feel fulfilled in life if all you did the last 30 years of it was keep other family members alive? Not progress the family, not advance the family, just keep it on life support?

I don’t have any answers for you but want you to keep your eyes open in this time and not let people use you.

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Thank you Jay. Keeping promises but this family feud with this Coon uncle and his Trinidadian (mail ordered) bush bitch. He really broke up the family all because he was/is jealous of my closeness to my grandparents. Jay do you will want to do a radio/pod session? I'd be an open book. I have nothing to hide.